Isn't the mind controls us instead we control the mind?

This post has been pending since long. I watched three movies: I-Robot, Transcendence and Eagle Eye couple of years back. These were science-fiction movies.  This draft has been sitting here on my blog waiting to be finished.  Those movies themes were when machine gains the consciousness and controls the world. This will happen or not we may not know in this lifetime. We can speculate or try to predict the future. It will help to find the solution to avoid inevitable. 

However, when I tried to relate this with my own conscious and subconscious behavior. It gave me goose bumps. Isn't it that the mind controls us instead we control the mind? It is frightening to see that it's happening inside me and within everyone. We are habit creature. Our lives are run in an auto - pilot mode. There is no conscious thinking or awareness within me most of the time. I am not able to choose the food or thoughts which I want. Our five senses are gathering so much information and we lack the ability to filter in the present. All our filters have been installed long back. My conscious efforts to change always work in the short term. We are constantly trained to think that job, money is the most important things and we cannot survive without it.

Those movies ended with the destruction of those systems. How to find a path to self-discovery through self-awareness? Be in the present.

Unchanted words - Musing

I can feel the change in my mental realm.  I am still driven by my emotions and, but my reactions are not governed by emotions. I can observe the mental pattern of my own thinking. It sounds ridiculous sometimes. How I hold a useless thought such as grudge or anger in the present mental bin and keep increasing the content subconsciously. I am operating from the subconscious mind for most of the time. I can see that clearly. However, the biggest change is that I can talk to my self and see those reactions and thoughts as useless. I can tell my self that how its not appropriate to think like that. Lot’s of emotional garbage and drama have been reduced.

I can see that all those stupid thoughts which gets generated to create a drama. I can handle now better. It’s a peace within matters.  

Few years back, I realized about pop-up thoughts.  Now I understood that there are thought bin in the present mind which we keep alive. These works as a pop up when external data matches with the content of the internal bin. These bins content are majority current happenings. We classify them depending on the present situation and store them on temporary basis. If there are too many negative bins created, then it internalizes or materializes similar feelings. Which type of bin are we holding?

With time, we develop habits to hold positive or negative bins and it determines our self-esteem.

What’s next in my self-improvement and self-realization journey.  Be aware of these bins and make it neither positive nor negative bin. Keep it as a neutral bin so that nothing materializes in to emotional pain or pleasure. Everything is temporary. All these bins have to be temporary to empty every day and use it for practical purpose.

Ancient wisdom - Vadani Kaval Gheta !!!

"Vadani kaval gheta nam ghya shree hariche.

Sahaj havan hote, nam gheta phukache

Jeevan kari jivitva anna he poornabrahma

Udarbharan nohe janije yadnya karma"

Jai Jai Raghuvir Samarth

Jai Jai Raghuvir Samartha!!!

Translation of the famous marathi prayer which we chant before eating food.  Sant Ramdas was well known saint from the 17th century.  I am working on my relationship with food. I started observing myself since last few months. Yesterday, I remember this beautiful verse and it gave me goosebumps.  I have been looking for meaning of eating food.  This has a perfect description of it. It resonated with the thing I am trying to understand since last few days. When i started translating this in English, it become little challenging. I understand the meaning of this verse  but the translation was pointing towards different meanings. So I asked my friends to translate it for me. Here, I am presenting all the translation. Jai Jai Raghuvir Samartha!

While taking a mouthful of food, chant the name of God

The food is easily offered as a offering to god when his name is said

The food gives life to us as it is completes God Principle

Having food is not just filling the stomach but is a type of fire-sacrifice (Yajna) - http://le-bouffe.blogspot.c

It's the strength of his name, which assimilates the food we eat,

The power of bread lies in providing life energy, converting the whole into one,

Eating is not only to provide fuel to body, but it is a worship to our soul.  - By Anjali

It makes a good combustion by your agni.

Life is made livable (by providing energy), 

Anna is complete avatar of the Almighty,

Don't treat it like an act of fulfilling hunger,

Its comparable to a religious ritual.  - By Manasi

Putting food in the mouth, Take God's name

It will be easily digested when eaten with his name

It gives life to life, food is god itself. 

It is not an act of filling your stomach, It is actually offering to fire of life.  By Sharvari

Remember and thank god for every bite,

Remember him and pray energy for every bite,

Remember water and food builds you.

Remember food is whole world

Remember its not filling stomach

Remember its not satisfying to taste

Remember its for existence

Unchanted words : Present

Life is in the present!

Open your eyes to see the present,

Your past was present and your future will be present

Because life is in the present, 

You can breathe to live

Your dream is present and your wish will be present

Because life is in the present

Yes, if you are present, then it's life..

Unchanted words : Change to change

Everyone is busy because our definition of the word idle is narrow,

Everyone is unhappy because our definition of the word happiness is shallow,

Everyone is sad because our definition of the word cheerful is mellow,

Everyone is struggling because our definition of the easement is darrow,

I hear these words busy, unhappy, sad and struggle from everyone.

I hear that life is hard and it’s not fair from everyone.

Think twice before we say these words busy, unhappy, sad and struggle.

Change the words, change the thoughts and to change your emotions.

It’s only a journey …….

Unchanted words: No fear

We fear, fear of failure

We fear, fear of death

We fear, fear of rejection

We fear, fear of loss

We fear, fear of hurting yourself or others

We fear, fear of uncertainty in life.

Nothing worse happens or everything worse happens.

Ultimately, we survive, we revive and we move on to the next moment.

So why to fear anything in life.

Let’s redefine fear which does no good. 
Let's there be no fear!

What really matters in child development?

I am on this journey to become a good mother. Yes, I am a mother of a two year old. I have my ups and downs.  I am reading about parenting, discussing with friends. I want to teach him empathy, to be humble and kind. I want him to learn to be happy and to live in the present. I want him to be healthy.  I  have a long wish list for him.  This wish list does not include anything about learning or study. I  am trying to put a lot of efforts to teach him all the values.  Every time I give him food or I am cooking for him. I start thinking about teaching him good eating habits. Giving him more nutritious food.  Yes, I feel stressed and overwhelmed about everything as a parent.

Now, I am contemplating on this thought what really matters in child development.  Actually, the most important thing matters is how I behave, eat, drink and do things.  Nothing matters, when I think about myself as an adult. How I ate and what I ate has shaped me?  Why I am obsessed with eating healthy food? What bad food I am eating and how much I am eating?  I am trying to understand that what’s going on within my world. What I eat is determined by many factors. For example, what I can buy around me cheap?  Next if I have a little more money,  then I can buy from a health food store or organic food.

I am a mirror for my son. At this small age, they  learn through repeating and copying. This thought has helped me to stop worrying and start changing/ improving myself. He will be empathetic, happy, creative and healthy. I ask myself these questions.  Am I happy? Am I empathetic or creative. If, I get answer positive, then I do not have to do anything. If no, then I have to use my time to improve. 

Happy Parenting.